I remember when I used to spend my money on things like...trips to New York and Chicago, cute, snazzy clothes, patent leather pumps, fancy expensive dinners, etc. Man, those were the days! Some may say that if they could go back, they'd do it all differently and saved all of that money, but I'd be lying if I told you I'd change a single thing. Why?
Well, because life is good. I'm happy. I have a good job that allows me a flexible enough schedule to start a business with Josh. I have quality friends and incredibly fun-loving acquaintances. My family and I are a close-knit unit. I have a roof over my head, and more importantly, my cats' heads. Everything that I need, I have.
Youthful frivolity and self-indulgence had its heyday, but now I find joy in spending my money on things like treats for my cats, more baking sheets and pastry bags (I can never really have enough of either of those), and I dream of my second KitchenAid stand mixer. Sigh... that would be so amazing!
New, shiny kitchen appliances, helpful baking tools, a custom apron made just for me... now throw in a state-of-the-art kitchen, and my life would be complete.
I want to believe that this change in priorities for me is indicative of my maturity, but then again, it may be more of an indication of my unabashed and shameless nerding out on all things baking-related. Just today, I texted Josh a message that said nothing but, "Compound Butter. Future flavors." I dream-bake batches of macarons, and depending on how they turn out, I either wake up relieved or a little disappointed that it wasn't real.
I think I'm just excited to have a specific focus on which to channel my creativity. I can think in colors and flavors like an artist or a chef, consider recipe structure and composition like a scientist, I can blog this entire experience like a writer, and at the end of the day, there's really nothing like the feeling of successfully creating something that started off as an idea in my mind. I don't have to just be an Excel spreadsheet data manipulator, I can be a CREATOR, and a creator of things that bring people happiness to boot!
Right now, I'm waiting for my El Silencio macarons to rest up so I can start popping them in the oven, and I thought it would be an apt time to write a post. I admit it's a bit all over the place, but I feel so in the moment that I hope you'll forgive my mental flightiness. If not, feel free to blame The Great British Baking Show because I have it playing on Netflix (new episodes!).
To more focused and humorous posts in the future!
Talk soon, friends.
Tiffany